It’s Thursday and I am having a bad time. Last year I wrote Motivationals every week, musings that helped keep me moving on my writing goals.
This year I have been struggling to keep up with everything and I blame it on a whole bunch of factors, some of them in my control, others not as much.
Mostly I think I’m just overtired and the thought of editing or even writing has my brain twisting itself in knots of inaction until I’m literally doing nothing worthwhile in my scant free time each day.
This is a Slump. We all go through them. Some people have seasonal slumps, where the winter is their bitter enemy. Others have self-doubt slumps, where nothing you create seems worth creating. Still others might be under so much pressure in work, or family life, or social situations that all their mental energy has been used up and they are in an overtaxed slump.
The point is, I haven’t figured out how to get out of my current slump. It is a constant companion. I am still producing, but at a much lower rate than I want and need to be. It is a mixture of not wanting to edit, of being discouraged to see how much work I need to still do, of work and home conditions shifting around and causing extra anxiety.
Words of encouragement are good, but they haven’t been good enough. Perhaps I’m coming down off of whatever super creative high I was riding last year and still need to decompress for a while. I don’t know. I don’t want to stop. I don’t think I will completely, but right now I’m just slumped over in my chair wondering where all that motivation drained away to, and how I can get it back.
At the end of the day, I’m struggling really hard to remember to write the hell on.